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To anyone out there feeling suicidal.



Hey, hello
I hope you realize how beautiful life can get
I was there
More than  once

And each time I held that gun
To this side of my head
I heard the kid I used to be
Screaming for help.

A soft cry
An innocent voice
A younger me
Wondering why I was so bitter.

I've walked that road and
I know this sign post
Where your mistakes are written in bold red
And your life is the only sacrifice
That can appease the demons craving for a drop of your blood.

I just want to let you know that
You've been through worse before
You've fought demons
And you won
So now they are trying to convince you that you are the last demon you have to slay.

Close your eyes and count
The second chances you will get when you lie there, lifeless, any?

See,
This whole world is messed up
And you don't have to give away your life to fix things that
Are far beyond you.

One day,
You will look at the bruises on your wrist and remember
How many times you dragged yourself into a fire that wasn't lit for you.

Maybe,
You've walked the better part of hell
And with the last step left to take you home,
Here you are
Giving in
Giving up
A battle you are about to win.

(From Even Demons weep)
© Eugine Kabasa

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